I was generally a size 12 (5'6") until I lost some weight and hit an 8/10. I was very happy there and felt healthy. The stress of my wedding put on some pounds...back to 12, and then I totally lost it after I had my baby. Now he's 2, and I am fatter than ever. I want to be able to run and jump and play with him without being embarrassed of myself. I tried running, and my extra large body was flying all over the place! I almost knocked my own self out! I want to teach Noah how to swim without wearing a mumu in the pool. I tried it. We were at a children's event that was very crowded, and people tried to get past me with their children and strollers, and I was smack against the wall, but they could barely get past me. I was mortified. I don't want to feel this way. I am tired of dreading events...I don't know what to wear, and I am tired of being uncomfortable. I have decided that it is time to stop and get things under control. Now I am scared...what if the weight doesn't come off? What if I get discouraged and fall off the wagon? How can I keep the motivation that I have now? I am excited to start this journey, and I am happy that I don't have to do it alone.