Jurnal Tucson red, 25 Jan 10

I had a rough weekend I felt very depressed and I mean VERY DEPRESSED!! I felt so lost and sad I feel like I am at a cross road in my life and I am not so sure anymore where I am going I know I have to fight a war that is not always a physical one but a spritual one. I am so confused about my life right now and I feel more alone then I ever have. I have always felt out of place and lonely my whole life I felt like someting was missing at first I thought it was the fact that I did not have my parents but really I just have always felt empty inside then I fell into something that I rather not even mention and I still did not feel whole I eat when I am sad or mad or depressed and that does not fill me up either the only time I felt happy and almost complete was when I was going to church and really having a true relationship with God where we would talk and I could hear his voice and I had peace beyond all understanding but for the past few years since August of 2007 my life has slowly faded away and this life is here it is dark and sad and empty once again and I am not sure what to do. I have been reading my bible again and picked up my book again become a better you by Joel Olsteen and I am praying again but I still feel so empty I dont want to turn to food for comfort anymore I need a new way out!!!!!!!

101,2 kg Sejauh ini Berkurang: 0 kg.    Sisa: 35,4 kg.    Diet diikuti: Tidak Berlaku.