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In 2009 I weighed myself at 152. Yikes. A button popped off my pants and I decided that was it! I was about 130 lbs when I got married in 2007. So.. in Sept 2009 I started working out, counting calories, and feeling better about myself. I used the app called Lose it on my iPhone and synced it with a friend. I lost 17 lbs by May 2010.. slow and stead wins the race right?! I made it to 135lb and rewarded myself with my "intermediate goal" reward of a pair of D&G sunglasses.
I then felt really happy with reaching a goal and maybe got complacent? I didn't push any further to my next goal which was 125. I think it's because I never decided what my reward would be.
Well anyway, long story short.. In 2010 I just let myself go back to my old problems again. I stopped counting calories, I stopped going to the gym. I stopped weighing myself because I didn't want to see what the scale was doing. *grr* I'm now back to just right under 150 lb. I've recently been trying to eat better but havent physically counted the calories until yesterday and today after talking with my husbands Aunt who was my "Lose It" buddy last time (and btw she rocks now!! Running half marathons and stuff.. running 7-9 miles a day.. even in our snowy state of Maine in the winter).
I have problems sticking to goals. I have a hard time turning down a cookie or cake or ice cream or brownie or rolls :(
I feel like I'm surrounded by alot of skinny people putting muffins and doughnuts and bagels on my desk all the time. It's hard to say no. I know it's all dependent on me... sometimes I easily put the blame on others. I hate that. Today my boss dropped a bag of cookies on my desk.. I found myself saying... "ok just one" (because I love them so) - and then I looked it up and it's a 220 cal cookie!
My first nature is "WHY IN THE WORLD DID YOU TEMPT ME AND MAKE ME EAT THAT COOKIE... YOU KNOW I WONT SAY NO!!"
Second nature- "I should simply say no thanks. If it must be .. it's up to me"
I need strength to tell people not to do that anymore- I'm afraid sometimes that I'll offend.. I'm also afraid that I just love sweets so much that I dont want to say no when they're offered.
I've not found anything that I love as much as sweets and snacks. I guess I need to find that my body being healthy is a better reward than that 30 seconds of eating the cookie.
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1125 kkal
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Lemak: 36,49g | Prot: 29,85g | Karb: 182,87g.
Makan Pagi: vanilla almond, Thick & Creamy Lowfat Strawberry Yogurt. Makan Siang: M&M Cookies, soup at hand, babybel, water, water, Diet Cranberry Grape Spray Juice. Makan Malam: Valley Fresh Steamers Broccoli & Cheese Sauce, Butterfinger Bar, shaws bakery mini croissant. Camilan/Lainnya: pretzel. lagi...
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2000 kkal
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Latihan:
Belanja - 1 jam, Kerjaan Kantoran (Dibalik Meja) - 7 jam, Istirahat - 8 jam, Tidur - 8 jam. lagi...
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