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So I posted on my Twitter today that it makes me sad when women eat very little and don't exercise, because it does! My sister replied, saying she eats very little and doesn't exercise, and she had dropped from 189-156 pounds recently!
It bothers me so much that my sister doesn't see the value of exercise, and that her goals are merely weight loss, instead of improved health. Because I know how smart she is, and I know she has had problems with diet pills and severe anemia in the past from not eating properly. She says she hates exercise, but I don't know how anyone who has exercised on a consistant basis could really *hate* it. I hated exercise when I would do too much too fast and felt like a failure because I couldn't live up to unrealistic expectations. She is two years older than me, and we have always been competitive when it came to appearance. She is this gorgeous person, with really big boobs and perfect skin and dramatic features, and the best nose! Even when she was bigger than me (not very often, but with yo-yo dieting, it happened), she seemed to be more feminine and beautiful than I am.
I guess maybe a little bit of jealousy exists because she's reached a lower weight than I have in less than 2 months, after the really hard work I've put in over the past 4 months. And also, I have been looking forward to seeing my family at christmas for the first time, and then seeing the progress I made in making myself healthier. Instead, they will see my thinner but weaker sister and my success will be muted by comparison. Ok, so maybe more than a little bit of jealousy is at play here.
But with the muscle I've gained, mayeb we aren't so far apart in size anyway, and anyway, what does that matter? I'm healthy and I feel great, and I'm improving myself in a different way than she is. I wish I could somehow put her on board so she could see success in a different light, but I guess it is her life.
I guess, I find it frustrating when people reach success, or what seems like bigger success, than I have by doing things in an unhealthy way. Of course, the point is that mine will be permanent, as long as I don't give up on myself and my health, which I won't, and she will inevitably gain back her weight when she stops restricting herself.
I just wanted to vent somewhere about that.
Lihat Kalender Diet, 25 September 2010:
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1374 kkal
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Lemak: 61,40g | Prot: 121,87g | Karb: 82,96g.
Makan Pagi: Steel Cut Oats. Makan Siang: eggs. Makan Malam: olive oil, avocado, chicken breast boneless skinless. Camilan/Lainnya: greek yogurt. lagi...
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2154 kkal
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Latihan:
C25k - 30 menit, Istirahat - 15 jam dan 30 menit, Tidur - 8 jam. lagi...
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