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Hi,
I am Kimberly. I am 44 years old. I have always struggled with my weight but have always had a lot of friends & been outgoing which has always seemed to get me by until lately. I started going thru a long separation process 1 1/2 years ago & that combined with my job which keeps me on the road traveling for a living most of the year allowed me to dig myself a hole to crawl into & ease my pain with my best friend (other than my dog) food.
I was able to put on more weight, lose any self esteem I had left & I pretty much shut everyone out of my life. I was done trying. I have gotten myself to the point where I am afraid it is going to kill me & I know I am the only one that can do something about it. I got up to 400 lbs., & I thought I was heavy 150lbs ago. Hard to even imagine now. 250lbs is going to be my first goal & if I can make it that far then I will go from there.
I have gone from wanting to die to wanting to live but now can barely walk across the parking lot or even go grocery shopping for myself. I had to back out of a friends wedding because I can't stand long enough for the ceremony. How humiliating.
I have gone to a very strictly supervised wellness program thru my local hospital where I am being followed by Dr's, a dietitian & have been on a physical fitness program.
I know I can do this, I have lost more than 50-60 lbs in the past.
I also know with every pound I lose physically, I will gain a pound of mental clarity & find my way back to myself & the me I want to be again.
I will admit, I am experiencing so many feelings I didn't realize I was going to experience. I am happy & excited yet also scared & sad that I have done this to myself. I struggle with my emotions but am determined to try to make it thru this battle. Maybe I am having these feelings I am not used to dealing with because normally I eat them? I'm not sure but hopefully soon these to shall pass.
Anyway, I am happy to be here. I know I will need help & hope I can be of help to others as well. I saw before & after photos of a young man on here tonight who was 500lbs which inspired me & brought tears to my eyes so I think I am in the right place.
I have lost 8 lbs this past week. Mostly water weight I know. My biggest goal was to be out of town at my hotel this weekend and keeping it off. I think I've accomplished that goal. I am taking baby steps and one goal at a time as to not overwhelm myself.
Thanks in advance to all support offered & may all your wishes come true............
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1488 kkal
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Lemak: 67,86g | Prot: 109,02g | Karb: 115,65g.
Makan Pagi: Watermelon, melba toast, egg salad, deer park bottled water, health wise cinnamon hot chocolate. Makan Siang: Proti-15 Wildberry Passion Cold Drink, deer park bottled water, health wise caramel crunch. Makan Malam: Casual Eating Favorites French Bread Pepperoni Pizza. Camilan/Lainnya: Cinnamon Hot Chocolate. lagi...
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