Saturday ... bright blue skies, chilly morning air, a good night's sleep and a dip in the scale!!!
I have to confess, I did take something to help me sleep last night but still I was able to wake up, take the dog out to do his business, lay back down and sleep for a couple more hours!! Probably could have slept longer but I wanted to get a few things done today other than sleep.
I'm in the midst of laundry, drinking coffee, and had a chat with two of my three kids on facebook. The only bummer was hearing from my one son a story that our other son told him that was a lie. I'm sort of upset by it. No, I am very upset as I learned he told the same lie to our daughter. We've been estranged from 2 of our 3 kids, my hubby's children from his first marriage for a number of years ... very long story that I won't bore you with right now.
Our daughter re-initiated contact with us this past year and that is going well. A couple of years ago we ran into our son at Wal-Mart with his new girlfriend and talked to him for quite a while. Brian indicated he would like to see us and we encouraged him to call us anytime. We've heard nothing from him since, even though he lives in the same small town we live in.
So he told our other son, Josh, that he saw us at Wal-Mart and we ignored him. Told his sister the same story very recently. I cannot tell you how much that upset me. We took his daughter, our granddaughter into our home as foster parents when he and the mother of his child screwed up and got themselves involved with the system. We took him into our home as an adult to try to help him out and get his life back on track. We paid for the family attorney for him to get a custody agreement. We fought for a relationship with he and his sister when his mother was telling lies about us. We would still welcome him into our hearts (be it with some reserve) if he reached out to us.
Anyway, I need to put that back in a box. It hurts too much to let it out. Brian will be 30 this month. Does the pain ever stop? What hurts the most is him telling lies to our other two kids. It's the same old thing, just like his mother lied about us all those years ago.
Well, thanks for listening. It still will be a good day. I have no control over that situation.
I better get my rear in gear ... I do have plans for the day!!!
I am grateful ... truly I am ...
for
1. Sleep!!!! Restful sleep!!!
2. The weekend!!!
3. Two of my three children at least talk to me!!
4. Clean sheets, not a lot of laundry to do, and maybe a movie tonight!!
5. Finding a place called
The Office where I might be able to do my little part time business venture without costing an arm and a leg for overhead!!!
Kindness continues ... with never ending challenges. I am going to focus on remaining on track this weekend and not making excuses to myself that I can just "let go" ... I do so want to see progress. I added flax oil daily to my diet which increases my fat calories but I have just read so much about how beneficial it is for overall health. I hope I haven't made a mistake by doing so. What do you all think? I hope you have a great day ... I look forward to many more!!