Jurnal dgthomas, 12 Sep 13

well i fell off the wagon completely. You know when things go well for some reason you tell yourself that one day doesnt hurt. and then you start to believe that going back to the old way of behaving (not necessarily eating) wont hurt. Well that leads back to old habits that are years old. Well thats what happened. No Excuses. My ego took over and i thought hey i can have a burger here a bag of chip there. But over the months the old habit of quick and easy came back and instead of fresh i wondered to the processed and chip isle. But after witnessing the weight gain and the fat build back up and my stomach issues reappear and my body ache reoccuring i started to realize its my weight and my diet that are causing this.

So again i am making the commitment to lose weight but moreso i want to change my life and return back to a place where i woke up feeling refreshed and without pain. I am not committing to a diet. I am committing to a new way of life. I deserve this and yes i may have lost my way but i will find it again and continue with this journey. I have thrown out the scale and have thrown out the timelines this time. My goal is to feel better and feeling better doesnt have an end goal. I am setting milestone and keeping those in mind - I think i will go buy a nice outfit that is a few sizes too small (i know many ppl saying thats what girls do - well us guys like looking good in clothes too)and once i fit into those i can do the process over again. So the goals are not tied to time or weight and if i can fit smaller clothes then i definitely am moving in the right direction.

I can either sit here and avoid this tool - like i have done for the past months or get back on the horse and be honest to myself and try again.

Good luck to everyone on this difficult journey - we will falter and fall sometimes but as long as we get up and keep going we will reach those goals we set for ourselves.

135,2 kg Sejauh ini Berkurang: 9,1 kg.    Sisa: 35,4 kg.    Diet diikuti: Tidak Berlaku.