"When you develop an eating disorder when you're already thin, you go to the hospital.
When you develop an eating disorder when you're not already thin, you are a success story."
- Blythe Baird "When the fat girl gets skinny"
I want to be thin. I would like to be noticed for being beautiful and healthy.
But what Blythe said is so damned true that I want to cry.
I will lose weight because I understand that I am at higher risk of developing certain types of diseases. I am losing weight because I know that if I do it now, I will struggle less with self-esteem, people's views and criticisms and impressions of me.
But...
Sometimes shit isn't easy.