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ok, so today I am starting a diet.. again. I was about 270, went on the overeaters annonymous diet and lost about 50, then gained 20 when I moved to college. I dont know whats wrong with me, its so hard to stop eating. I want to get healthy, sometimes I wake up and want to cry and go back to bed. I love oreos, they are the only junkfood I can eat, since I am vegan. That was another weight loss thing of mine, going vegan. It worked for the most part, now I cant eat cake, frappachinos, McDonalds, all the stuff I know I would if I could. I use it to controll my diet. I just feel so bad about myself sometimes, I look in the mirror so much and try to convince myself that I am not a huge fat ugly girl everyone hates. I dont know what I want, i want to be healthy, I want to be "fit" but I dont think ill ever be comftorable in my own skin.
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