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LONG POST, sorry.
I just read on my ST FB page, someone talking about the great changes that have happened in their life the past 3 weeks because of going to ST. Then I read...."I don't write about the 13lbs I've lost, the 2in off my waist, or the way my pants fit bc that is the least of my worries." This person is talking about ME.
I know this, because this is what I said when I was telling the others about my successes. I immediately took this personal and I know I shouldn't. This person does have some major health issues, but so do I. I just choose not to dump them on everyone in that support group. I feel she is dismissing my success as trivial. Even though my challenges within those walls may not seem 'worthy' enough to her or possibly others, they are important to me.
I have to let this comment be insignificant to what I'm doing at Swing This. It can't hinder my progress, no matter how slow it may be because it is taking everything I have at the moment to continue moving in the right direction. I grew up with a verbally abusive parent and words cut to the bone for me and this comment of hers hurts very badly...which is ridiculous because I have never even met this person and I know there are people who have no clue of the impact from what they say-and some just don't care.
I cannot control what a person says or thinks. I can only control how I react. So I must choose to let it go, give the 'benefit of the doubt', and stay focused on what I'm doing for me. Easier said than done, but why should this be any easier than what I'm working towards?
My friend Toni can't walk today because her g-pa is in hospital in ICU. She didn't walk last Thursday because she went to his house and was helping him that day. She said she hopes she doesn't seem like a bad friend...she is so silly sometimes (love her). I told her to be a good g-daughter and we can walk later, do what she needs to do.
So, what will I do instead? I plan on working out when I get home using what I have in the house. I can't let it fall through. So wish me luck that I stay focused and do what I need to do. :-)
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