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Its been a little over a week since my last journal entry. I must confess that I really didn't do hardly any exercises last week due to me being sick and all I wanted to do was just sleep but with me being a single mother to 3 children... getting any kind of sleep is a real treat. I try to stay up for at least one hour after I put them to bed so I can get some "me" time in.. I never get any kind of a break otherwise. Despite me being sick.. other things have popped into my life that I am not happy with and has truly made me upset to where all's I want to do is just eat them away. I am pleased to say I found the courage to hold back and not do it. I grab a glass of water or herbal tea and just watch t.v. to calm down.. seems to help to a certain degree. Im just at that point in my life right now to where I LOVE helping others out especially my family and try to be there for them on things and ask them on how everything is but yet when they cant show me the same kind of courtesy back.. well it just makes me feel down right awful. I feel hurt, ignored and like everything I do isn't worth anything. Why do I bother trying I ask myself and then I get a reminder from God in some aspect..... cause that is who I am. I am a young lady with a big heart who would put everyone else ahead of her own on anything and everything possible and never ask for anything in return.
On the plus side I just found out on Monday of this week that my fiancé is finally able to move down here. He finally got joint custody of his children (something that still bothers me a little bit cause of how the mother is but at least its said and done) and will be down here in the middle of next month. So have about 5 weeks to go. It gives me incentive and motivation to start back up on my exercises to lose this baby weight cause once he is down here.. plan baby gets into motion. :) I always try to see the good in every situation which is not easy to do sometimes. I know I haven't weighed in this week but will hold off till sunday so this way I can start a new week with a new weigh in.
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