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I typed a long journal entry this morning and right when I was almost finished (last line) it went ‘POOF’ into internet limbo someplace!
So here I am again during my break at work to get it down.
This time though I’m going to compose it in “Word” first and then copy and paste, can’t do that on my home laptop.
Good Morning Wednesday! Looks like it might be a good day, (HA, wrote that before I came to work and got bombarded with STUFF, amazing how work gets in the way of life sometimes huh?) Anyway I am not going to dwell on my work frustrations in this journal entry. This is going to be an upbeat entry!
Had a very nice lunch with Robert yesterday ;-) I stayed within my woe with a grilled chicken cesar salad (no crutons). He brought me lunch since I could not leave work (feel like I’m in prison sometimes, ok,ok, off of that now). Anyway, it was very nice to reconnect with him and I think we might continue to see each other. He is going to call me in 48 hours, lol he is an Engineer and talks like one!
Funny thing is that what you said Ronnie, about somethings may not be coincidence, I feel you are right. If our ‘chance’ meeting hadn’t have happened at Hands Across the Sand event, if we had run across each other a year ago, or even a few months ago, the timing would not have been right at least not for me. I was not ready for it, I was not ‘intune’ with me and therefore I would not have been secure in relating to others.
Actually I recently found out that a close friend that was a ‘boyfriend’ after my divorce has a steady girlfriend now, so my chances with him has gone, but that didn’t really bother me. We haven’t been girl/boy friend in quite some years but still remained friends (as we were before the big D). So I am happy for him and I resigned myself to life without a ‘boyfriend’, and concentrated on ME, getting in shape, eating right, getting in tune with nature, and feeling good, confident. Then ‘poof’ Robert comes into my life and its like, uh this could work, but I’m not going to push, I’m just going to let things develop naturally. I came to find out that as far as a past meeting, timing for him probably would have been not intune either, due to circumstances that I won’t get into here and I didn’t reveal to him that feeling but I think he knew. So maybe things will work out for a reason beyond our understanding ;-) Anyway I’m not going to dwell on it and I will allow ‘life’ to flow over me naturally, feels so much better that way ;-) And most importantly I will not loose ME in the process, just continue to loose the weight of course!
GO BOOT CAMP! GO BOOT CAMPERS! You have saved my life, I am so proud & happy to be here. Not happy about the overweight situation, but that is under control because you all did not give up on me, and I'm not going to give up on me or you!
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