Jurnal Sakiewicz, 26 Jul 18

😐 try to eat low calorie foods when you can not control yourself, my little one makes me hungry sometimes (stress) Take care of yourself 💙❤ 

I have anxiety issues as well and three kids running around so I feel ya. Some times it feels like I just need to literally run away! At those times I tell the kids to help each other (mine are all School age) and lock myself in a room by myself or go outside and just ‘be’. Sometimes it takes screaming, running the driveway, calling a friend to help me talk through it or, if I can sit still, reading a book. My counselor has helped me to identify some of the triggers (big one is kids constantly screaming next to me or running through the house in general) and it’s better now. Not great but not a several times a day thing now. More like a few times a week thing or if everyone is fairly calm then maybe only once a week :). Hang in there and hope it eases up for you soon! 

I am sorry for your anxiety, if you have friends or family, see if you can get breaks away from it all. and I would talk to your doctor about it. Getting assistance early will help in the long run. Don't let it build up. I worked to the day I had my son and I was barely allowed 5 days before they insisted I get back. Being out and about I think helped me. If you are a stay at home mom, you need to get away and let your hair down. 

Try to take a nap. Is there a neighbor girl, like a 10 or 12 year old you can hire to run your kids outside for a couple of dollars? You are there so she isn't on her own babysitting but you can rest with the baby. 

Postpartum depression is hard and real! Get help if it gets bad! Hormones can mess with us and no shame getting help. Sleep deprivation doesn’t help either 

Thank you everyone for the advice, I may look into a baby sitter or something like that for a day a week or something.. I am a stay at home mom, so on a single income with 4 kids we are sometimes limited on options. My older twins start 4k in September so I think that might help, it's only like 4 hrs a day but it is 4hrs with out running jumping and fighting. My younger one is only 1 1/2 and my newborn so they really don't fight.. Yet. My husband let's me get away whenever we have time, just drive around or go shopping and stuff. I'm on a anxiety med but it takes a few weeks to start working. So waiting on that to start working 

Hang in there! I didn't have 4 under 4, but ANYONE under 4 can drive a mom to drink at times. I had a "mother's helper" -- young (14 or so) girls from the neighborhood who came over twice a week to play with the kids for 2-3 hours in the afternoon after their naps. That's when I did paperwork, ran errands, etc. Sometimes I was just in my room with a good book! It made me calmer and a much better wife for hubby, too. Prior to starting having help in the afternoon I'd basically be running out the door as hubby came home, and that wasn't workable for all of us, either. 

I had 4 under 5 so I can relate and I had postpartum depression. if it doesn't ease please for your sanity and safety tell ur family or ur Dr because they can help. I literally just needed a med for 2 weeks and some sleep so my mom gave me a break for a couple hours a day for like 3 days and I took my meds and was ok.  

I had depression pretty bad after my kids. The worst part is not admitting it, and I was in denial. Luckily, I was able to get through, but it took some great family to make that happen. Take those breaks when you can, don't pass up on offers to watch the kids, and maybe even an offer for a play date where you can let the older kids run free at a park while you visit with another mom. You'll get through this, but you don't have to go through it all alone. 

I am so sorry!! I had horrible post partum anxiety after having my kids...it got worse each time. There is nothing you can do—you know you’re being crazy and irrational but you can’t change it. Try to take a break if your hubby will watch them. Take a nap, long bath or drive around. Those things helped me a little. It will pass so be patient and hang in there. Hugs to you!!